Still a work in progress
I’ve been blogging about the past and I’ve decided I need a category for now. Sometimes thinking about this stuff makes me sad, so I need a place for the now. I have a really good life, I’ve been married almost 6 years and my son is now almost 16. With my marriage I gained another son and then we had a daughter. We started this year with a big move from Arkansas to New York City. We love it here, it’s like being on vacation all the time. I’ve never really been out of Arkansas, so this is a big change. This has been a great move for our family. I am no longer a Jehovah’s Witness and I am not searching for my place anymore. Eventually I will get everything in my blog about the past, but life is good and sometimes I need to focus on that and this is the place.
So do I ever miss it? No, not the religion, but the people. Jehovah’s Witnesses just had their Memorial and I can’t help but think about the friends I’ve lost and feel sad for them. I have a few friends I knew from back then, but those who are still active will probably quit talking to me soon. Why? When you Google Sandy apostate my site comes up. I am not an apostate, but putting myself back in the shoes of a Jehovah’s Witness, since I am not for Jehovah, I am against him. My heart hurts to lose these precious few friends, but maybe some day they will start on their own journey and I will be here for them.
i agree. it’s hard to lose friends, especially ones you felt close to. it’s really strange to wake up one morning and realize that none of the people with whom you’ve been sharing so much of your life really even know you anymore. but, i definitely feel like the friendships i have now are with people who aren’t going to drop me because i saw the wrong movie or dated the wrong guy. that’s definitely a good feeling!
Sandy,
I had no idea….I’m so sorry you had to go through so much in your life, and I’m very thankful that you are happy now!