A laughable “Sisterhood”
This post has been rattling around in my head for a few days so I have to set it free. As young women we start out being told there is a great “Sisterhood” of women that would rally at our side on the common ground of womanhood. It doesn’t take long to figure out this [...]
Letting go
May is a busy month. Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers out there. My husband and I will celebrate our sixth anniversary and his son will turn 10. I haven’t blogged much, I installed an update and now my computer is pretending to be a paperweight. I’ve been thinking lately that I should link [...]
I voted!
Our local school board had an election today and I voted. Just a normal occurrence for most people my age, but not for me. I registered to vote 10 years later than my peers. No voting, no saluting the flag, no fighting in wars, we (Jehovah’s Witnesses) had to remain neutral at all times. When [...]
Still a work in progress
I’ve been blogging about the past and I’ve decided I need a category for now. Sometimes thinking about this stuff makes me sad, so I need a place for the now. I have a really good life, I’ve been married almost 6 years and my son is now almost 16. With my marriage I gained [...]
A Jehovah’s Witness in church
A coworker invited me to church and at that point in my life I was open to it. It was a big beautiful Baptist Church. The inside of a Kingdom Hall is very plain and until recently they didn’t have windows, there is no Sunday school or fellowship room. This place was huge. I tried [...]
A guilt free Christmas
My life as I knew it was over, I had no religion, but sometimes the old way of thinking sneaks back in. I struggle with that even now, a person can’t spend 28 years being trained to think and act one way and change it overnight, much less over a decade. There will always be [...]
Standing still
Drinking wasn’t forbidden as a Jehovah’s Witness, everyone I knew drank. This was one indulgence I didn’t have to feel guilty about. The last year of my marriage and the first few months out on my own I drank regularly. Life was all about not thinking about my religion. At this point I wasn’t doing [...]
I have to decide what to do?
I was numb for a while, I just moved forward without thinking. My son and I lived in a small apartment and I just focused on him, it was amazing how much time I had on my hands now that I didn’t have a husband to cater to. We did all the things we wanted [...]
The End
So my Elders don’t think I should move out and give up on my marriage. They’re wrong, I know they are, which makes it easier to listen to other things I’m told over the next few months. In a last ditch effort to keep me, my husband decides to go to the Elders and confess [...]
No questions
I quit knocking on doors a while before I quit going to meetings, I can’t convince other people to believe when I’m so conflicted. In all the years I spent knocking on doors and the occasional Bible study here and there I am most grateful that I never brought anyone into the truth. I always [...]