Other people’s stories
Every former Jehovah’s Witness’ story is different. Some of us were born in, some came in on their own and some kept getting kicked out and coming back for more. No matter the story, I love to read them. The bitter ones make me sad, but the others make me feel a little more “normal.” [...]
Wait, what?
Anyone who is having any doubts about their religion should read “Crisis of Conscience.” We were always told Ray Franz was an apostate, but as I’ve said in my blog, if you aren’t for Jehovah you’re against him. Not Jehovah as in God, but Jehovah as in what this religion claiming to be his believe. [...]
A Jehovah’s Witness in church
A coworker invited me to church and at that point in my life I was open to it. It was a big beautiful Baptist Church. The inside of a Kingdom Hall is very plain and until recently they didn’t have windows, there is no Sunday school or fellowship room. This place was huge. I tried [...]
A guilt free Christmas
My life as I knew it was over, I had no religion, but sometimes the old way of thinking sneaks back in. I struggle with that even now, a person can’t spend 28 years being trained to think and act one way and change it overnight, much less over a decade. There will always be [...]
Standing still
Drinking wasn’t forbidden as a Jehovah’s Witness, everyone I knew drank. This was one indulgence I didn’t have to feel guilty about. The last year of my marriage and the first few months out on my own I drank regularly. Life was all about not thinking about my religion. At this point I wasn’t doing [...]
I have to decide what to do?
I was numb for a while, I just moved forward without thinking. My son and I lived in a small apartment and I just focused on him, it was amazing how much time I had on my hands now that I didn’t have a husband to cater to. We did all the things we wanted [...]
The End
So my Elders don’t think I should move out and give up on my marriage. They’re wrong, I know they are, which makes it easier to listen to other things I’m told over the next few months. In a last ditch effort to keep me, my husband decides to go to the Elders and confess [...]
No questions
I quit knocking on doors a while before I quit going to meetings, I can’t convince other people to believe when I’m so conflicted. In all the years I spent knocking on doors and the occasional Bible study here and there I am most grateful that I never brought anyone into the truth. I always [...]
Getting to the point of awakening
I float along for a while, some things are blatantly wrong, but I just keep throwing myself further into my religion until I reach a breaking point. Again, some would say I never had faith, but who would devote themselves and their entire life to something they didn’t believe? I did believe wholeheartedly, blind faith [...]
A long time coming
I remember even when I was active, I was concentrating so hard on pleasing God, maybe I didn’t believe as strongly as I wanted to, but that just made me try harder. I went to more meetings, went out knocking on doors more, spent more time with fellow Christians and reading God’s Word. If you [...]